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Saturn, come back and take Stuart away!

So I haven't blogged much about my dear upstairs neighbor Stuart, but he's currently hit a new oil slick on the highway to complete and utter psychosis. He spent the day today removing all the brick from our back patio (which, for the record, Peat and I helped build), and since sundown he's been just stalking around the premeses clutching his cat and circling the building.

The management company gave him until tomorrow to get all of his crap off the patio that he's been storing there for the past three months, and though that's all still there, he actually removed the patio itself. All the bricks are piled in his parking space and he's parked on the street.

I shouldn't laugh too much, but he got a ticket. Hehe.

He filed a grievance against Peat this week for offering people raspberry plants. We can't really explain why. He's nuts. And now, desperate. And as far as I'm concerned, dangerous.

I've even given up trying to visualise him falling in love and moving away, or being happy, or anything like that. And I know better than to try visualising him getting run over by a bus, no matter how happy it would make me. At this point I just keep imagining the day when Jen will move in upstairs and we'll be a happy little coven again with Ms. Maus next door.

Anyway, I'm not even talking about anything, just babbling and ranting. I'm home sick today, so I'm allowed. Oh, and my THIRD saturn return is on Saturday, so I'm bitter too. But I'm trying to be positive about it. Listening to a lot of Tool and all.

Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity
calculate what you will and will not tolerate
desperate to control all and everything
unable to forgive your scarlet letterman.

Clutch it like a cornerstone
otherwise it all comes down
justify denials and grip them to the lonesome end.

Clutch it like a cornerstone
otherwise it all comes down
terrified of being wrong
ultimatum prison cell

Saturn ascends.
Choose one or ten.
Hang on or be humbled again.
Humbled I am.

Saturn ascends, comes round again
Saturn ascends, the one, the ten
ignorant to the damage done.

Defining.
Confining.
Controlling.
Sinking deeper.

Saturn comes back around to show you everything
Lets you choose what you will and will not see and then
Drags you down like a stone or lifts you up again
Spits you out like a child, light and innocent.

Saturn comes back around
Lifts you up like a child
or drags you down like a stone
to consume you till you chose to let this go.

Give away the stone.
Let the oceans take and transmutate
this cold and fated anchor.

Give away the stone.
Let the waters kiss and transmutate
these leaden grudges into gold.

Let go.

Well, some of that's paraphrased. Interesting... a bunch to think about. How much of this is about Stuart and how much is about me? Well, given the Saturn connexion, it's about me, of course, but Stuart is kind of a psychotic phuque. But should I care? I'd love to see him get his comeuppance, but I'm sure he'll bring that on himself. I just need to sit back and wait and let him give away his own stones. I don't need to be carrying any for him.